lately some people those are close to me said i've got high patience and tolerance but i was just thinking as i reflecting back i realised i do. but at the same time i was thinking how far can i go this time? i know for sure i wouldn't burst in front of people but it's kind of suffocating me in a way. i really want to let go yet as days goes by, i get to know more things happening and got frustrated about it. i know it's not over yet what till i'm back home as in really home. i felt at times day really past by slightly slower as you're unhappy or being hurt in the matter. i just wish things didn't happen and wouldn' happen but shouldn't it's unavoidable since it had happen. turning back the time is impossible. the more you invest, the more your effort, the more you give in, the more you feel the pain, hurt, sorrow...you can just name it.

today spoke of armour of god. we should put the full armour of god. not partly but th full ARMOUR OF GOD !!! it was fantastic message. sometimes we tense to ignore did no realised the things happening around us where the enemy is at work. but we need to stand firm until the very end. it occurs to everyone of us, as paul said it. whatever we are facing in our life now whether good or bad, we need to put on the armour of god to be ready all the time. even in good times does no mean the bad times wouldn't come.

each other day i need to forgive now. thanks for your word and encouragement. i definitely going to survived through this season and bringing breakthrough to th next season. there is greater things awaiting for me as the challenges bigger than i can take it. my father in heaven is more than a conqueror and working in the spiritual realm fighting for me, my families and friends around the whole....love you always...you are the best and irreplacable in the world..you rocks and rules in my life...