Monday, June 30, 2008
my gosh another month is gone !!!
i can't believe one month is gone and i wasn't posting anything here. was way to lazy to post what can i say. i know i know always my excuses hopefully this few days i will update again especially on my big day with great celebration and surprises !!!! so much to share but so lazy to type and put it up.
Monday, June 2, 2008
one month ago !!!
one month ago on 25-27 april 2008 i went for our church ELEVATE camp which is a young adults camp but then it's my usual group OXYGEN. anyway for a wider view, our church has 2 groups of young adults which is OXYGEN(18-25) and ELEVATE(23-30). however, i'm an active member from OXYGEN but a spectator in ELEVATE for now. that camp they invited MIKE CONNELL which is a superb speaker. you would never ever be regret for it. however, now only i realise now it's june already. so it's one and half months ago already. but what happen it still so clear in my mind. so thought today wanna share experienced happen during the camp. it wasn't just another camp of fun or whatever.
mike connell is a speaker from new zealang. he is prophetic speaker and teaches us how to stirred up the prophetic gift in us as well be sensitive to the holy spirit. there time for us to practice and pray for people of coz those people we don't know. it was really a good time and learning as well. how i went for this elevate camp out of suddenly was because my friend godwin and alice are pastor for elevate group. they told me mike connell gonna be so good so i must come. i was somehow just sign up for it don't know why. maybe it's the holy spirit. no joke.
so went for the camp of coz with expectation and stuff. before we went for the camp both me and adele (my darling as well my housemate), we decided to fast for breakthrough also to hear clearly from god during the camp. we fasted meats almost 2 weeks before the camp....if people knows us well would know a suffer for us coz both of us don't eat veges so to fast on meat was really hard.
in the camp i really felt sort of weird or new. why ???coz it's elevate group so i don't know much people there. we are totally new there coz we are OXYGENERS. haha. but somehow i did meet new peoples there and are friends now.
first night basically just bbq night and introduction to the camp. we had ice-breakers and stuff then headed off to sleep i think. forgot what we did entirely. went to sleep to prepare for tomorrow full on whole day.
first session we had after our breakfast. it really a day GOD created. breakfast started i already got PRANK. during breakfast they will pick 5 persons to share something. i'm one of the lucky one among so many. that's just the starting of the day. come back to first session, mike connell was talking about holy spirit how we can pray for people and discern from the spirit about the person we are praying for. oh ya before that, before session started one of the leaders from evelate prayed for me about disappointment in my life. there are tears coming down my eyes but the problem i don't know what's the disappointment all about. that's the first prayer i got that morning. during the first session, after his sharing , he starts to demonstrates how to flow with the holy spirit and how it works. the first person he chosen was ME !!! that's another surprised for me. i was like how come ???anyway it was all good. however, i walked behind another friend of mine so in the end i was second. i was so anxious that time thinking what god has gonna tell me now.
now comes my turn. it was totally out of my expectation and what i gonna hear. he said there is sadness in my heart. there is grief that i've been carrying for a long time. there has been something that let me down, that i'm having trouble of letting go. there are DISAPPOINTMENT in my lives, i find it's difficult to trust again. my mind has been troubled and thinking i am to blame. all these has robbed my confidence and god wants to bring freedom to all these accussation. i have a beautiful heart and a serving heart and loves to do things for people. i always been giving and now it's time for me to receive from HIM.
the moment he said words out from his mouth, the tears within me came running down uncontrollaby. that moment i knew it was the holy spirit and god is speaking directly into my heart. it was so amazed when i realised i don't even understand myself more than GOD, himself. he know every single thing within me. i think for all these years that is the day those tears are unspeakable. no one seen i cried like this before so do myself. i don't know the day i cried like a baby non-stop. my leader especially was surprised as well. my eyes was so sore that day and swallow. i hardly open my eyes. the whole day those tears just come flowing down. it wasn't really what i expected. i never thought there still so much GARBAGES into my life for now. i was really break free that night feeling really helpless.
indeed during that morning and afternoon session i really received a lot. just really rest from god's word. that time i just wanna have a good sleep and let my eyes rest which i can't coz we had our drama practice for the night. after the presentation that night, mike connell came back to minister to us because he felt god asked him too. that camp is all about holy spirit and powerful it is. that night ministry what was fantastic i heard from friend was four of us which is anna, myself, adele and tiffany was holding hand in hand to be prayed for by mike connell. the move we open up to the movement of the holy spirit, when mike connell just gave a blow we all fell one by one. don't ask me how i do not know. this is what my friend told me. they was like really amazed to see how god works. but it was really a super duper experience can't be explain by words. that night we had people breakfree from strong holds, bondages and so on. it was really a family thing praying for one another.
after the session was over, one guy approach me. i don't know before he approached me. he told me what he felt when i was being prophesied during the morning session. he told me when i find it's hard to trust again , he totally saw a wall building within me he can't see me afar. he was sitting right at the corner of the back row that time. when talked about the hurt, he said he totally understand how i felt. i was like....what ???i don't get it man. he told me when that moment mike connell talked about hurt, there is a sharp knife going through his heart. he totally experienced the pain in him. it was another amazement to me. i never expect someone to understand those hurt apart from myself and of coz god himself. but within the room, god actually allows someone to experienced the hurt and pain i went through before. i wasn't going through and went through all these alone. don't you agreed HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD ????
that night went by with some worship with some new friends and oxygeners before we head back to our room to catch some sleep.
speaking of sleep. now i'm going to sleep because tomorrow morning both me and adele are planning for a morning jog if we are successful again coz it's 730am in the morning with the coldness !!!!
sorry being a cliff hanger now. i will update again !!!
mike connell is a speaker from new zealang. he is prophetic speaker and teaches us how to stirred up the prophetic gift in us as well be sensitive to the holy spirit. there time for us to practice and pray for people of coz those people we don't know. it was really a good time and learning as well. how i went for this elevate camp out of suddenly was because my friend godwin and alice are pastor for elevate group. they told me mike connell gonna be so good so i must come. i was somehow just sign up for it don't know why. maybe it's the holy spirit. no joke.
so went for the camp of coz with expectation and stuff. before we went for the camp both me and adele (my darling as well my housemate), we decided to fast for breakthrough also to hear clearly from god during the camp. we fasted meats almost 2 weeks before the camp....if people knows us well would know a suffer for us coz both of us don't eat veges so to fast on meat was really hard.
in the camp i really felt sort of weird or new. why ???coz it's elevate group so i don't know much people there. we are totally new there coz we are OXYGENERS. haha. but somehow i did meet new peoples there and are friends now.
first night basically just bbq night and introduction to the camp. we had ice-breakers and stuff then headed off to sleep i think. forgot what we did entirely. went to sleep to prepare for tomorrow full on whole day.
first session we had after our breakfast. it really a day GOD created. breakfast started i already got PRANK. during breakfast they will pick 5 persons to share something. i'm one of the lucky one among so many. that's just the starting of the day. come back to first session, mike connell was talking about holy spirit how we can pray for people and discern from the spirit about the person we are praying for. oh ya before that, before session started one of the leaders from evelate prayed for me about disappointment in my life. there are tears coming down my eyes but the problem i don't know what's the disappointment all about. that's the first prayer i got that morning. during the first session, after his sharing , he starts to demonstrates how to flow with the holy spirit and how it works. the first person he chosen was ME !!! that's another surprised for me. i was like how come ???anyway it was all good. however, i walked behind another friend of mine so in the end i was second. i was so anxious that time thinking what god has gonna tell me now.
now comes my turn. it was totally out of my expectation and what i gonna hear. he said there is sadness in my heart. there is grief that i've been carrying for a long time. there has been something that let me down, that i'm having trouble of letting go. there are DISAPPOINTMENT in my lives, i find it's difficult to trust again. my mind has been troubled and thinking i am to blame. all these has robbed my confidence and god wants to bring freedom to all these accussation. i have a beautiful heart and a serving heart and loves to do things for people. i always been giving and now it's time for me to receive from HIM.
the moment he said words out from his mouth, the tears within me came running down uncontrollaby. that moment i knew it was the holy spirit and god is speaking directly into my heart. it was so amazed when i realised i don't even understand myself more than GOD, himself. he know every single thing within me. i think for all these years that is the day those tears are unspeakable. no one seen i cried like this before so do myself. i don't know the day i cried like a baby non-stop. my leader especially was surprised as well. my eyes was so sore that day and swallow. i hardly open my eyes. the whole day those tears just come flowing down. it wasn't really what i expected. i never thought there still so much GARBAGES into my life for now. i was really break free that night feeling really helpless.
indeed during that morning and afternoon session i really received a lot. just really rest from god's word. that time i just wanna have a good sleep and let my eyes rest which i can't coz we had our drama practice for the night. after the presentation that night, mike connell came back to minister to us because he felt god asked him too. that camp is all about holy spirit and powerful it is. that night ministry what was fantastic i heard from friend was four of us which is anna, myself, adele and tiffany was holding hand in hand to be prayed for by mike connell. the move we open up to the movement of the holy spirit, when mike connell just gave a blow we all fell one by one. don't ask me how i do not know. this is what my friend told me. they was like really amazed to see how god works. but it was really a super duper experience can't be explain by words. that night we had people breakfree from strong holds, bondages and so on. it was really a family thing praying for one another.
after the session was over, one guy approach me. i don't know before he approached me. he told me what he felt when i was being prophesied during the morning session. he told me when i find it's hard to trust again , he totally saw a wall building within me he can't see me afar. he was sitting right at the corner of the back row that time. when talked about the hurt, he said he totally understand how i felt. i was like....what ???i don't get it man. he told me when that moment mike connell talked about hurt, there is a sharp knife going through his heart. he totally experienced the pain in him. it was another amazement to me. i never expect someone to understand those hurt apart from myself and of coz god himself. but within the room, god actually allows someone to experienced the hurt and pain i went through before. i wasn't going through and went through all these alone. don't you agreed HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD ????
that night went by with some worship with some new friends and oxygeners before we head back to our room to catch some sleep.
speaking of sleep. now i'm going to sleep because tomorrow morning both me and adele are planning for a morning jog if we are successful again coz it's 730am in the morning with the coldness !!!!
sorry being a cliff hanger now. i will update again !!!
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