the day i was BORN....

alrighty the reason i must post this of coz because of the celebration but as well to share what happen how it went. it was just an awesome day with memorable events , foods , fun and etc. it's just hard for me to explain in words because i'm blasted by it.

my birthday was celebrated entirely on friday 27-06-08 because saturday was a church day so gotta celebrate early. friday i woke up like 930am wait till adele left the house then i went to wash up and shower at about 1015am. i was waiting for her coz i know she is late AGAIN. she asked me to meet her in bourke street, city because she gotta get some stuff done first. so yeah i just gotta wait till she is out. early morning she already woke up to prepare stuff coz i heard inside the room. she was actually baking the muffin. it's yummy actually.

met her in city then she brought me to crown. the funny thing since she is late she haven't went to check out where is the restaurant. so we are late like half and hour i guess. but but the restaurant is superb i gotta tell ya. it's expensive but the food and service is really good. that's what we normally gotta know right since the place is expensive.

have a look at the view i first taken from restaurant. btw, the restaurant is named KoKo japanese cuisine. you can city view sort of. how cool !!!

look at the back. i'm not the focus of the picture. i don't know what does it called by as you can see water in the center of the restaurant and those stones you can walked across. very stunning idea in there.


first pictures i taken by myself. we already changed our seating coz adele said we gonna eat teppanyaki. basically i was following what she is 'telling' me to do that day. haha.

our appetizer for the day !!!! the veges is good. yeap that's me joan tsen saying the veges is good !!!

now present to you all the organizer of the day !!! ADELE KHOR single and available. which guys think need to go after her let me know....gotta let me scanned thru first. whoever got her would be one of the biggest blessing in your life. woman of god , love god , love people and willing to sacrifice anything for her loved ones at least that we talked the other day !!!!

random picture of me coz we are waiting for the food obviously. that's what we can do when you got nothing better to do.

food time. more food coming up for now. you know they got scallop , prawn inside. another thing was the chinese thing i forgot what does it call. but this is nice though normally i doesn't like it. this taste so much more better than alot of places.

this is the teppanyaki. he chef cooks while we eat. btw, the chef is cool coz as most of the people know i eat really slow, so he actually wait till we finish only cook other stuff for us. ok inside the plate, there is fish, prawn , octopus and don't ask me the 3 sauces coz i don't know what it is i only one of it is the chilli and there is miso soup of coz in the black cuppy.

yes this is the only picture we took together by our chef. he offers to help us why not ??? though he only took both of us without the food. haha...can't be too demanding for that.

wow !!! this is my favourite .....soft shell crab !!! yummy yummy !!!! love it so much so crunchy.

this is the chef of the day for us. he is fun and entertaining. his name is van from myanmar. he actually post let me take his picture while he cooks for us. one funny little fella.

beef sirlioin with mushroom and beansprout and don't know other veges. i didn't take the veges coz it tastes so raw doesn't like it add on i don't eat this type of veges. haha. excuses !!!

this picture i look so super fat. gosh !!!! but just that gotta show the cake what can i do or else i'll just skipped it. this is the funny thing happen. the cake meant to surprise me but somehow the person who is more surprise was ADELE. why ???she booked the place she said was for birthday. so this cake it's actually complimentary from crown itself. so when the gal took out the cake after our meals, she was so surprises instead of me coz she doesn't know it comes with the complimentary cake. so she said ' end up i'm the one who is more surprised'. you just gotta imagine with me or be there to see her reaction.

see the cake doesn't it looks awesome !!! what can you ask for from a complimentary cake ??? what more it's a tiramisu cake and it taste really good not some cheap stuff.

of coz it's me blowing the candle !!! another year older though if happens the next day only. still the same. haha.

white sesame ice cream but i still want my green tea ice cream. they gave white sesame to us coz the gal said it's famous in their restaurant. it does taste good but still i prefer green tea.

ok this shoes keychain is so cool. yes you can see i'm 26 if those who doesn't know or doesn't remember. it's really nice. thanks to my darling. she's having her backache because of this but i definitely love it really love appreciate all the efforts she put in for me. i still wan da shoes with the LOVE. haha.

the last picture we took after our lunch. we can't believed we are there for like 2 and half hours i think around there. the food was good plus i'm a slow eater around there consider fast i think. haha. was a very superb fantastic meal. recommended place. love ya darling !!!

this is just the part 1 ...part 2 would be coming soon. hopefully later i will do.

my gosh another month is gone !!!

i can't believe one month is gone and i wasn't posting anything here. was way to lazy to post what can i say. i know i know always my excuses hopefully this few days i will update again especially on my big day with great celebration and surprises !!!! so much to share but so lazy to type and put it up.

one month ago !!!

one month ago on 25-27 april 2008 i went for our church ELEVATE camp which is a young adults camp but then it's my usual group OXYGEN. anyway for a wider view, our church has 2 groups of young adults which is OXYGEN(18-25) and ELEVATE(23-30). however, i'm an active member from OXYGEN but a spectator in ELEVATE for now. that camp they invited MIKE CONNELL which is a superb speaker. you would never ever be regret for it. however, now only i realise now it's june already. so it's one and half months ago already. but what happen it still so clear in my mind. so thought today wanna share experienced happen during the camp. it wasn't just another camp of fun or whatever.

mike connell is a speaker from new zealang. he is prophetic speaker and teaches us how to stirred up the prophetic gift in us as well be sensitive to the holy spirit. there time for us to practice and pray for people of coz those people we don't know. it was really a good time and learning as well. how i went for this elevate camp out of suddenly was because my friend godwin and alice are pastor for elevate group. they told me mike connell gonna be so good so i must come. i was somehow just sign up for it don't know why. maybe it's the holy spirit. no joke.

so went for the camp of coz with expectation and stuff. before we went for the camp both me and adele (my darling as well my housemate), we decided to fast for breakthrough also to hear clearly from god during the camp. we fasted meats almost 2 weeks before the camp....if people knows us well would know a suffer for us coz both of us don't eat veges so to fast on meat was really hard.

in the camp i really felt sort of weird or new. why ???coz it's elevate group so i don't know much people there. we are totally new there coz we are OXYGENERS. haha. but somehow i did meet new peoples there and are friends now.

first night basically just bbq night and introduction to the camp. we had ice-breakers and stuff then headed off to sleep i think. forgot what we did entirely. went to sleep to prepare for tomorrow full on whole day.

first session we had after our breakfast. it really a day GOD created. breakfast started i already got PRANK. during breakfast they will pick 5 persons to share something. i'm one of the lucky one among so many. that's just the starting of the day. come back to first session, mike connell was talking about holy spirit how we can pray for people and discern from the spirit about the person we are praying for. oh ya before that, before session started one of the leaders from evelate prayed for me about disappointment in my life. there are tears coming down my eyes but the problem i don't know what's the disappointment all about. that's the first prayer i got that morning. during the first session, after his sharing , he starts to demonstrates how to flow with the holy spirit and how it works. the first person he chosen was ME !!! that's another surprised for me. i was like how come ???anyway it was all good. however, i walked behind another friend of mine so in the end i was second. i was so anxious that time thinking what god has gonna tell me now.

now comes my turn. it was totally out of my expectation and what i gonna hear. he said there is sadness in my heart. there is grief that i've been carrying for a long time. there has been something that let me down, that i'm having trouble of letting go. there are DISAPPOINTMENT in my lives, i find it's difficult to trust again. my mind has been troubled and thinking i am to blame. all these has robbed my confidence and god wants to bring freedom to all these accussation. i have a beautiful heart and a serving heart and loves to do things for people. i always been giving and now it's time for me to receive from HIM.

the moment he said words out from his mouth, the tears within me came running down uncontrollaby. that moment i knew it was the holy spirit and god is speaking directly into my heart. it was so amazed when i realised i don't even understand myself more than GOD, himself. he know every single thing within me. i think for all these years that is the day those tears are unspeakable. no one seen i cried like this before so do myself. i don't know the day i cried like a baby non-stop. my leader especially was surprised as well. my eyes was so sore that day and swallow. i hardly open my eyes. the whole day those tears just come flowing down. it wasn't really what i expected. i never thought there still so much GARBAGES into my life for now. i was really break free that night feeling really helpless.

indeed during that morning and afternoon session i really received a lot. just really rest from god's word. that time i just wanna have a good sleep and let my eyes rest which i can't coz we had our drama practice for the night. after the presentation that night, mike connell came back to minister to us because he felt god asked him too. that camp is all about holy spirit and powerful it is. that night ministry what was fantastic i heard from friend was four of us which is anna, myself, adele and tiffany was holding hand in hand to be prayed for by mike connell. the move we open up to the movement of the holy spirit, when mike connell just gave a blow we all fell one by one. don't ask me how i do not know. this is what my friend told me. they was like really amazed to see how god works. but it was really a super duper experience can't be explain by words. that night we had people breakfree from strong holds, bondages and so on. it was really a family thing praying for one another.

after the session was over, one guy approach me. i don't know before he approached me. he told me what he felt when i was being prophesied during the morning session. he told me when i find it's hard to trust again , he totally saw a wall building within me he can't see me afar. he was sitting right at the corner of the back row that time. when talked about the hurt, he said he totally understand how i felt. i was like....what ???i don't get it man. he told me when that moment mike connell talked about hurt, there is a sharp knife going through his heart. he totally experienced the pain in him. it was another amazement to me. i never expect someone to understand those hurt apart from myself and of coz god himself. but within the room, god actually allows someone to experienced the hurt and pain i went through before. i wasn't going through and went through all these alone. don't you agreed HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD ????

that night went by with some worship with some new friends and oxygeners before we head back to our room to catch some sleep.

speaking of sleep. now i'm going to sleep because tomorrow morning both me and adele are planning for a morning jog if we are successful again coz it's 730am in the morning with the coldness !!!!

sorry being a cliff hanger now. i will update again !!!

everything is MEANINGLESS

how many of us thought of what is life ??? what am i doing in my life ??? why i need to work ??? why am i here on this earth ??? what do i want in life ???

haha.....but i can't give you the answer as well even though i know most of human being been through these or going through this. of coz i have thought of that as well.

lately i'm so into book of ecclesiates. it was so good and i'm addicted to it. i starts from chapter 1 of ecclesiastes where solomon said everything is MEANINGLESS. solomon is the person in bible who had everything ; wisdom, power, riches, honor, reputation, god's favor. he is mentioned in chapter 1 what the world would offer us is emptiness. whatever we are accomplishing and efforts now will meant nothing in the end. instead it is our commitment to god is the only reason for living.

solomon wrote this book based on his own experienced. as mentioned he has the riches but apart from from god nothing can make him happy. yes it's true. at times we might have all the possessions or technology or whatever we wanted but in the end of the day , what would it brings us ???happy for a period of time and that's it. it's not an everlasting happiness within us. it's just a TEMPORARY thing.

if in our life we are trying to find accomplishments in our work, material or etc rather than god , we will never be satisfied. everything we pursue will become wearisome or getting tired of it. we always need to bear in mind whatever we accomplish on the earth will disappear one day. if not we will be proud of ourselves when we succeed or felt disappointed when we fail. what solomon is trying to say is that whatever we accomplishments and possessions are meaningless. only the pursuit of god brings real satisfaction. we should honor god in all we say, think and do.

"TRUE WISDOM COMES FROM GOD ; TRUE HAPPINESS COMES FROM PLEASING HIM."

i like the explanation in verse 16-18. it says like the more we understand , the more pain and difficulty we experience. for example, the more we know, the more imperfection we see around us; the more we observe, the more evil becomes evident.

as we set out with solomon to find the meaning of life; we must be ready to feel more, think more, question more, hurt more and do more. are YOU ready to pay for the price of wisdom ???

how true it is ???are we willing to pay that price for wisdom ??? if we are going through time thinking why we are doing what we are doing now .....ask wisdom from god. whatever possessions or accomplishments we have now or in future might not be what we want and will not satisfied our needs. TRUE SATISFACTION comes from god.

why i say that also because these few years i' ve seen that in my life. i consider myself having a good life far more than a lot of people yet i felt i'm not satisfied. i've been searching and finding till i've met HIM along the way. though i am not like solomon now but i know for sure still a lot of thing i still need to learn as well gaining god's wisdom in my life.

Are we Forgiving ???

i wanted to post this chapter for some time but always lazy to do it. the reason of course it speaks to me and i do hope it speaks to you as well.

2 samuel 9

it is a story of David and Mephisosheth. i don't remember someone actually told me about this story or i heard it myself as usual as i read i reflect on the story only it makes more sense to me.

the story was about mephisisheth the son of jonathan. now david is the king of israel. david was asking whether is there anyone left in jonathan's household. david and jonathan was sworn brother if i remember correctly. jonathan was proctecting david even when saul which is joanthan's father trying to kill david. then the servant of saul said mephisosheth is living and he is crippled in both feet. the reason david wanted to see mephisosheth because he wants to show his kindness to him for jonathan's sake and also to show god's kindness. when mephisosheth was brought to david , he was invited to eat with the king which is david on the same table. david also gave everything belongs to saul back to mephisosheth. even he is crippled from there onwards, mephisosheth always ate at the king's table.

let us reflect back on us ???how does it relate to us ???? everyone of us are 'cripple' in certain ways whether on our past, our the things we have done or whatever it is yet god has never failed to invite us to eat with HIM on his table. he shown his kindness by sending his son , jesus to everyone of us. but it still our decision to accept it or not. despite for who we are , he forgave all our sins. he never take any records on it when we confess upon that cross. at times we can be like mephisosheth felt unworthy to receive the gifts from david but he chose to accept it. it's true we will feel unworthy for god has given to us , we felt we does not deserve it but that's god's promise to us. see (ephesians 2:8,9 - 8 God saved you by his grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; it is a gift from God. 9 Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it. )

from the chapter it shows david's kindness and forgiveness even when saul wronged him. when we chose to reject god , yet he remain faithful to us and forgive us. how many of us can be forgiving when someone wronged or rejected us ??? can we still be that generous to those who are less deserving ??? let us think about it.

when i thought of it ; i can only see how small myself is and how big God is. he really been always faithful to me through my journey with him. a lot of times i do not understand what i'm going through of the ups and downs yet time he proved he is right. the reason behind what's going on. the reason he chose to let me going through those valleys. the reason he wants me to cry our my heart to him. the times when i've got no one to understand me yet he remains there to listen ; at right time to show me his way.

YOU DESERVE ALL OF ME !!!

nothing is a SURPRISED !!!

as i mentioned before in my last blogging ; i don't remember where i read the phrases or whatever it is. i finally got it. it's actually from the bible but different version no wonder the translation was so good.

it says "what happens now has happened in the past, and what will happen in the future has happened before, God makes the same things happen again and again". this version is so easy to udnerstand.

especially with the SiChuan earthquake going on ; no doubt people will starts questioning why this kind of disaster are happening again ??? at least this verse gave me the reason to it. it's not a surprised from god but as he said in his words....what had happened in the past and going to happen in future; it has occured before.

but of coz through all these i believe god is not silent about it. let us keep praying and let god's love surround them and knowing god is still in control in all these.

a time for everything

Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

1 For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.

2 A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.


3 A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.


4 A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.


5 A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.


6 A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.


7 A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.


8 A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.

9 What do people really get for all their hard work? 10 I have seen the burden God has placed on us all. 11 Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end.

12 So I concluded there is nothing better than to be happy and enjoy ourselves as long as we can. 13 And people should eat and drink and enjoy the fruits of their labor, for these are gifts from God.

14 And I know that whatever God does is final. Nothing can be added to it or taken from it. God’s purpose is that people should fear him. 15 What is happening now has happened before, and what will happen in the future has happened before, because God makes the same things happen over and over again.

The Injustices of Life

16 I also noticed that under the sun there is evil in the courtroom. Yes, even the courts of law are corrupt! 17 I said to myself, “In due season God will judge everyone, both good and bad, for all their deeds.”

18 I also thought about the human condition—how God proves to people that they are like animals. 19 For people and animals share the same fate—both breathe^[a] and both must die. So people have no real advantage over the animals. How meaningless! 20 Both go to the same place—they came from dust and they return to dust. 21 For who can prove that the human spirit goes up and the spirit of animals goes down into the earth? 22 So I saw that there is nothing better for people than to be happy in their work. That is why we are here! No one will bring us back from death to enjoy life after we die.

i've listen to message for twice by erwin mcmanus. first time doesn't impact me so much and yesterday night was the second time i heard him in our church. doesn't know why this time it makes much more sense to me and makes me reading back few times for the passage. really loving it.

'The Beauty of a Tradegy'

this passage says about a time for everything. a lot of time what we facing in life whether good or bad , god has his purpose. especially when we are facing our giants ; god said he makes everything beautiful out of it. because we always sees things the way it is ; we can't acknowledge the beauty of god allows to go through. we are blinded by the circumstances.

erwin mcmanus mentioned we are meant to go through difficulties, hurt, grief, disappointment and etc in life. think about it ; it will make sense to you. if life always been so well and going through without storms you wouldn't be excited and looking forward for the next day. through all the storms ; we are growing also learn to acknowledge god's existence , his power in our life. i think it makes sense to me also because i did went through all these thing to build me up for who am i today.

a time to destroy and a time to build. a time to cry and a time to laugh. a time to to be sad and a time to dance. life is always fill with colors !!!

i think i read it somewhere or what i just forgot it about it suddenly. if says something like what happen in the past, present and future ; god already knows about it. it not something surprises god. also whatever happen now had happen before. i really can't remember where i read it but it's really good. that phrases explain much more better than me.

whatever season everyone is going through ; hope we face it strongly and overcome it by god's strength and power. everything has its reason and its season. let us learn together the see the BEAUTY OF A TRADEGY together. don't also indulge in the tradegy but see outside the box.