it's has been almost 2 months i'm back home now. though it seems a little long but at the same time pretty short as well. once back in december make a trip to hong kong in december for friend's wedding. end of january make a trip to taipei. it was good attending friend's wedding and meeting a few old friends where i get to know from melbourne. taipei qite a good place with much delicious food but it was such a short trip definitely will be there again in future to explore more and going their nature places.
loving my life back at home though it slightly different now. going out and going where at least sometimes gotta let my parents know not like when i'm in melbourne going everywhere and don't have to tell anyone and just leave home. other than that everything is good. lifestyle over here for me quite the same as in sleeping time and hanging out. back here always got the attitude of going out till late or else every night that's quite a bad habit to some people would say but at least my parents are fine with it. this is a lifestyle where i don't do in melbourne. most my night time would hanging at home unless there is function or whatever. a good thing would be sometimes back at home i would sleep slightly earlier compare my time in melbourne. i don't know why but i do. i don't really sleep at 6 or 7am anymore rarely the most would be before 5am. it's a good improvement though. i know i gotta adjust my time before i get a job here and let my body get use to it.
during this period of time there are always good and bad times. still in the mode of confusion on myself i reckon searching during this period of time what am i suppose to do while i'm waiting the right time to head off to hillsong college. it's my desire to attend hillsong college but it's all up to HIM, i still need to surrender to him. apart from it, i'm deeply searching which field should i get into and when i should get involved in ministry. i really hope i hope i can help out and serve in some area of ministry before i get rusty....nah, actually i doesn't wanna waste my time not doing the work of god. basically right now i can't see visually what i'm doing to expand god's kindgom i felt i'm doing nothing. right now back here meeting up with old friends and new friends i guess it's one of the thing i have place to do something.
old friends meeting up sometimes i do hope i can help more and helping them to find god once again, encourage them to turn back to god or even just to listen to them what's their struggle and things been happening since we left high school especially those i haven't seen them for ages.
met a new friend i totally having burden for him. it was hard for me thinking should i be doing it or not because of fear. i still can't get over th fact i actually missed a chance inviting him to church where he had open up the topic and repeating the question to me for a few times yet i never take any action. it's really my regret. i still remember having the conversation with him it's christmas eve. he asked where am i going to celebrate for christmas eve. i told him church. next would be what time. he repeated few times then what time i'm going church. god actually open up the door but i've missed it, i know i wasn't bold enough. that morning before meeting this friend somehow i prayed god to open door and somehow will allow we talked about him in whatever ways he can. it even came to my realisation he haven't actually heard the gospel before or totally a stranger to him about christianity. i felt so crush off during christmas eve service. i was stirred and realised but haven't i invited him that very night. i missed the ever most precious chance. from now on i can only pray for another chance but at the same time now making friend with him to build the friendship trust to able to testify god for him. what makes me felt wanted to give up was rumours around. people will start making assumptions or spreading rumours or asking weird question just because it's a guy and gal thingy. why can't guy and gal be friends i was thinking at times?it's a bit different i felt back here compare to melbourne. back there even though i'm close with guys, people wouldn't simply spread rumours and pretty fine with it. back here it might be once or twice people saw you, stories start flying around. i don't like to be lime light when i was just back and spreading unnecessary stuff as well i might worried losing a friend. i know i was a worrier but i can't help it at times.
chinese new year started during the month of february. what it meant more foods for me as well. the month of feasting non-stop. never skipped a meal yet might be a few more meals than normal. it's good time with family and relatives. no complaint for it. fourth day had open house that night is the least i've eaten been busy for the whole day. morning dim sum then went to bought stuff whatever we needed for the night.i guess this year we spend the most on drinks. before chinese new year i bought 5boxes of box drinks, 2 dozen of 1.5 soft drinks, another dozen of orange juice and imagine how fast it has gone without you knowing. actually my little cousin drank like no one business i mean he isn't little anymore turning 11 this year. so on fourth day we another 4/5 boxes again and a dozen of 1.5litre coke again with a carton of shandy. craziness and it's gone within a night what more i can't find drinks for myself that night. freaky right?but it was fun...really fun though was a bit stress that night too!!!!
fifth chinese new year the day we waited much of those stress and preparation, 9499 10th reunion of smallsaints. 2 weeks beore the reunion you felt more stress and burden with so much things to do. what more the night before reunion. alot of last minute preparation. that night was so busy. in the afternoon was already there with other committees member decorating the venue and preparing. 4pm went home to take our bathe 5pm back there all ready for the night. that night most of the time can't believe i was at the stage helping out making sure everything runs well. thank god everything went smoothly. what's more comforting when all hardwork and effort had been put in, everyone saying it's successful and everyone enjoyed it so much. that's the whole purpose on it make it worthwhile for the effort. thanks for everyone who helped out whether in big or small/people who attended that's the reason we are doing it !!!! good job everyone.....;)
reunion best part i think bringing back old memories and good old times. funniest i think one of the group actually sang backstreet boys 'as long as you loves me'. everyone cheers and laugh the reason was really old school hits for us...when we are young....haha....times past really fast though with a glimspe of eyes it's been 10 years. it also brings back so many old friends we haven't seen for so long...so much laughter. that night ends like 11pm with packing up 1130pm. after that head to another friend's place and crashed down. chatting and some of them continue to drink. i know i head home about 3am. reaching home i totally gone case. suddenly felt so relieved and tired should say right after the event, i totally lost myself but still went along with my friends. the next day i don't know i slept for how long. but still i woke up when friends called me. in the end someone called me eventually i really got up from my bed then took my bathe.
this very person consider special in a way i guess. she is baby used to babysit by my aunt 20 years ago. so a week before chinese new year, we met her dad in a coffee shop so said chinese new year will pay us a visit. eventually they came, so she took my number saying before she head back to singapore for studies will drop by again to chat with me. so she came after that. we chatted and bring her for teatime, satay she wanted earlier but her dad couldn't get it for her. what's most amazing, even the little things i don't remember but this kid does. luckily i pampered them before not torturing them or else i guess she will remember for her whole life. now she is coming over visit us coz she remember how we treated her while she is baby till don't know how old is she i couldn't remember myself. till now she called my dad 'uncle dad' in hakka which pretty funny though. it make me realised actually no matter where we are and what we are doing whether right now, 10years before or 10 years to come, actually it does matter to people around us. when we thought the least kids would understand, but the good things they will remember the details knowing who actually shower them it love. it's not like i'm doing something wrong now or anything but it's just the way i represent myself to people in 20 years down the road , people coming over and tell me what i've done to them hopefully something impacting their life and change them.......i wish i can do something much more useful able to pin down the memories in people's life. every actions count from now.......bear in mind !!!!
i'm pretty much excited because someone is visiting me all the way from kl before heads back to melbourne. i felt super blessed....love ya so much....will update more coz i'm too tired now to continue with the post....
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